Roll it all Back

Daily writing prompt
What technology would you be better off without, why?

Trekking through the rain forest. Standing under majestic, celestial waterfalls, dodging a snake that fell through my ceiling, Making friends with Chorotega Indians, diving for lobster, surfing daily in empty line ups, crossing crocodile infested rivers, leaf cutters, dodging turtles making their way to the ocean in the brilliant sunlight of the Avellanes river mouth, flying across the Gulf of Mexico for a pentance/pennies, standing in line for a pay phone, only to be pushed to the side by a bold man, who ran in front of me and grabbed the phone, mother fucker, having the bank president take me outside to show me how to use a machine to get money, machine guns, friendly men with machine guns, climbing into pools of water held by boulders, sit in one, cold, climb a boulder, hot, miles of clay highway, no road signs to guide you, no GPS, no pop up blocked, sitting at a table in Guatemala with a Professor from the Aisle of Wight, a mechanic, an international business major, the host family and the argument of Fingerprints of the Gods, horses, cows, dogs, bot flies, dengue, You’re gonna get fucked, survival of the fittest, you can hang, being a pioneer, making the way for pussy footed others who want to change cultures, colonization, apartheid, directions to church, starting point, Christie’s, real estate, yes, real estate, get it while you can. All of it. I would be better off writing in the sand, with a stick. Technology is a fast past to a hell fire. I’ll take the stars, on a dark, indigo night. Lit up by nuclear fusion, pulled by the weight of gravity. People dog the young, they are our only hope. People dog the poor, they are our only chance to happiness. Love. Your brother as yourself. Love God with all your heart.

Alex, oh Alex. Help me.

We are a ball, spinning through infinity. Hang on. It’s going to be a bumpy ride.

Wilson, oh Wilson. Help me.

AI suggests that I am mentally ill for having written this.

God, oh God. Help me.

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Yesterday morning I woke up at three o’clock and ran out the door. I visited a family friend, It was the eighty fourth birthday of a Ticano matriarch. I consider her a mentor. I have always favored wise people.

I enjoyed myself, driving on the road from Potrero to Negra, remembering all of the years that we were the only gringo’s on the road. I could see the night stars. A rare occurrence in my life now.

Construction here is insane. It takes hours to drive a forty-five minute distance.

I found out after leaving that they were cutting my path off to get home. Construction 7-7. Oh great!

So, I circumvented and went through another route. Of course, they were working on the road too, I had to leave the road to go around them. Their equipment was antiquated. Their process silly. The first rain will wash away their work.

I hit something. It broke something off of the bottom of my car. I stopped and picked it up. I had sounded like I had a flat tire. But that was not the case.

Thank God, I broke down in front of the nicest people’s home. And we have a motorcycle for extra transportation.

Rooster, who is an expert mechanic drove the car home.

I had fun with the family. Speaking my Spanish.

If you go to another country you really should work on learning the language.

We got the vehicle home. Me following the Rexton with our motorcycle.

I can’t wait to sell this place. I would have never, ever been here if it hadn’t been for the Meza’s.

But I have faith in God. He is bigger than the Meza’s and he doesn’t lie to me.

Then I heard something in the night – opened the door and was bit by a bat. Great…..

I will not be daunted.

It’s not what I wanted.The waves are breaking beautiful at Avellanas and I am here in Potrero.

Patience and perseverance is the key to all success..

Woe – Black Bottom

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It was about fifteen years ago, maybe longer when the goat, a neighbor, told me about Black Bottom. We were standing in his mother’s driveway, surrounded by moss and azaleas. The conversation was wrapped up. I had to leave.  It was at this interim that my friend told me about Black Bottom. Black men being kidnapped – made to work on shine stills, believing they would be returned home. But they weren’t. They never returned home. They were killed. Never to be seen by their loved ones again. It left me numb. Puzzled. Wondering. What the —— ? I went into a state of shock.

I have heard and seen many disturbing things in my life. This was another one. How shattering are these words to my mind. It’s a hammer. A sledge hammer. Hammering. 

Disturbing and nefarious conditions can rule a man’s mind. A lust for power, no longer wanting to be the gum stuck on the bottom of a man’s shoe. Sitting in front of a five and dime, in a rocker. The sun shining, the trees shading the park. And the gum growing grittier and dirtier. Dirty enough to want change the situation. 

I’m a fifth generation Westsider.
Some of my ancestors have been moonshiners. All were farmers and dairy people. Some were meaner than others. They were all racists and all capable of killing. Some had made their way from Suwannee County. Those were the true pine people. The bottom of the barrel. There’s no one lower than the people of the pines. Only blacks. In a poor white’s mind. 

They lived together, worked together. It was all unusual and peculiar. But people wanted work. No one wants to starve.

Black Bottom was not something I talked about to anyone, There are many things that have been told to me, or I over heard. But nothing like that.  What do you do with that kind of information? 

Then one day, years later, I stumbled onto a writing. It mentioned – Black Bottom.
Black Bottom – a specific place. A creek bank along highway ninety. 
Jacksonville is a big spread of land.

Its population has always been a high percentage of blacks. They were originially brought here from Senegal Africa as slaves, in 1814 where they continuted to worked as slaves until 1865.  

My great- grandmother Elizabeth Peterson Lowe was Scotch Irish, born on the other side of town. Not by the Kingsley Plantation, but on a dusty trail in the woods. In the pines. She was born in 1861 the year the civil war began, in the family farm house on Blair Road. In what’s known as Whitehouse/ Westside. The far west of Jacksonville.

‘There are three distinct divisions of the Westside. From the elite wealth of the St.Johns/ Ortega River  – the people that I went to school with – to the dusty trails and cedar swamp of Whitehouse. My mother went to Whitehouse Elementary and also St. Paul’s in Riverside. Many of my family still live on Blair Rd.

And there like everywhere else, people are just being typical people. Everybody wants. And they want more. And they’ll go to great lengths to get it. 

Cummer is a name we’re all familiar with. They made their way in the logging industry. But they weren’t Southerners. They came from down from Michigan. They weren’t part of the poor immigrants making their way to Florida through South Georgia. Feeding on swamp cabbage. They had their sabal palms graced on their lawns as they should be. They were the top.The bosses.The ones who gave the orders to the turpentine workers, logging men and all involved. If you ever saw a man with extra long thumbs, you knew he had either been kidnapped off the highway to work in the pines or had been hung by his digits, as a punishment. And would be forever deformed, marked and handicapped.

The people who ran the pine tree industry were brutal people. I’m sure some weren’t as mean as others. Like the ladies.There were the debutante bridge parties. They had their China tea cups filled with the finest homemade liquor. Many of them, a part of Carrie Nation’s failed, nobal social experiment. This is the Wealthy Westside.

The middle starts at Roosevelt Bvld. And ends at Cahoon Rd. They are simply the people, in the middle. I don’t know much as much about them.

And you know the little Whitehouse/Westside ladies dipping snuff and snapping peas had their hooch in a tin can. – Their elements of escape were not a game. It didn’t hurt to carry a , small of course, iron skillet in your knitting bag. 
Prohibition years were 1920 – 1933. Just go ahead and tell people they can’t do something, like drink a beer. And see what happens. The wealthy will create drinks so expensive, there couldn’t possibly be anything illegal about that. And do you really think any of them went to jail for their offenses.

No one ever saw or heard a thing. 

The Hyslers are an old Jax family that came from Jones County and settled in Whitehouse. Many are still there. 

My family, the Peterson, Lowes were their neighbors. 

A close neighbor being two or three miles down the road.

Both families have been there for two hundred years, mas o menos.

Now, my people were Irish settlers, farmers and gamblers. They were Catholics with holy cards and crucifixes, a whiskey at five o’clock. A bit off beat with the general population of the neighborhood, who were hard shell Baptists, bringing in the sheeves. We were heathens and they were pagans.

And their drinks were, well, let’s just say they didn’t drink.

All these ole Jax folks are now laying dead, somewhere.

Last year, meeting with a journalist/writer/ not historian — my ancestors laying in their graves in the Historic Gravely Hill section of  Riverside Memorial were called miscreants.  All of them. Lumped together and thrown into the barrel of devious despair. 

I was shocked. But before I could be truly shocked, I had to look up the word miscreant. 
a person who behaves badly in a way that breaks the law –

Ok – I might be a miscreant, but I am not a criminal. First. You have to be caught and then you have to be convicted, to qualify. And even then you could be innocent. 

Some of you here to day might be. No worries – I’m not going to ask you to raise your hand.

And this fictional story that I have written is just that. Fiction.
And even if stories are printed in the news. Journalized. They could still be untrue.

Today, we live in a time of gotcha journalism. 

And there they all lay, my ancestors. Dead. In death we are all on the same level. Dead. 

No one cares who you are or where you came from. Sometimes your life just becomes a story. Open for criticism from the puritanical, to the worshipers of evil.

As of today, I am not dead and I do care. That’s why I want tell this story the best I can.

Black Bottom, it is at the nadar of our collective conciousness, of Jackonville Florida. All of Jacksonville.

That is Black Bottom.

Woe – O Black Bottom
The earth shook the bones loose. Over the course of passing years and many hurricanes,
Irma had been the one. She sent the normally sedintery waters rushing. The trees bent and the river rose. All human life had run for cover. The animals were the first to evacuate. Mother Nature was at work. The sediment, soaked and satureated, pulled the mud from the bones. They loosened. Bit by bit they rose The fast moving water sucked them to the surface. They saw the sunlight on the day the storm settled. In the eye they winked. Finally. We are here once again.

On the Road Again

It’s 4 in the morning. Once again, I am hitting the road. A ride with a friend, to the airport, to Atlanta, switch luggage. Re-enter the country. On to Jax. Be met by a happy leprechaun who will speak with a brogue and inform us, in a light hearted yet serious manner, the antics, adventures and misadventures, of our island. Amelia.

This has been an extensive stay, here in Surfside, Costa Rica.

I never in my imagination could have come up with the life style that I now lead.

I was taught by the best.

  1. Don’t be in a hurry.
  2. Don’t follow the crowd.
  3. Your health is you wealth.
  4. Love yourself and others.
  5. God is good. God is everywhere.
  6. Pay your bills.
  7. Know you are powerless.
    a. if you don’t think that you are, speak to someone who has lost everything due to catastrophic weather
  8. Don’t worry be happy.
  9. Be clean.
  10. Eat right – sleep good

    Enjoy the trip. We have hurricanes brewing. And coffee. And books. And love.

“my shitty blog”

4mm-14mm – Fisheye – Abstract, creative – a search for truth

I would be amazed at stories, such as, Diary of a Mad Drug Fiend / Alister Crowley – taboo – I had many false starts, living in those beginnings – I thought I was at the end. And it was. Until it wasn’t. Yet another colorful, animated clip. Called life. – Tell it all – Paint a colorful vibrant, spellbinding story. Loving, violent. Gut wrenching, ethereal.

In Black and White.

I was recently asked where am I going to write and publish these ideas. Good question. I started this blog, which is a personal journal in 2011. And I am glad I did. I enjoy writing. It helps me to process. And I have had my share of procession and possession, pugilist, pedantic, punctual and tardy pastimes. I have written them in the moment and events long gone. Vivid memories. Faint recollections. Fights. Court battles. Deaths. Births. Surf adventures. You know every day life. Getting by through writing.

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The Life of a Dedicated Beach Bum

What is this world coming to?

I was shocked to see this sign at the entrance of the Auto Mercado in Tamarindo, Costa Rica! I had clothes on, so I was good. Having just left the beach, playing with my dog. I enjoyed seeing the students and horses. Tourists – having fun. On another day I might have been surfing and at the start of my first grocery pit stop. I have 5 between Tamarindo and Playa Potrero. It’s necessary to try and beat the cost of today’s groceries

I am currently living in flux – I’ve dug a glorious hole here. It started one way and has ended up another.

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Costa Rica Surf Adventures: Passion and Transformation

Hang in there!

Last Friday, I posted to Sassy Silver Surfers. SSS is my favorite women’s surfing FB page. The post was a quip. A memory of my first stay in Costa Rica. My husband took me to Mal Pais, for my fortieth. That trip changed our lives in a drastic way. Surfing became a dominant passion.

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66 – Edits

I have been forced to live in a technological world for 43 years. It began when I enrolled in college. I took an English Comp and Statistics class. I had to do every thing on the computer. I complied. It was an edit in my life.

Add on take away. That’s editing. When something doesn’t work – change it. If it’s wrong it’s wrong, forever.

What makes sense to one person, confuses another. Some people never bother to write a sentence that needs editing. Nor do they think to change their life. To move. To learn new things.

To add to or take away.

That’s editing. My life is full of edits.

No GPS

To date, I have not given in to relying on a GPS.

They have taken the fun out of travel and adventure. No one knows how to give directions anymore. The serendipitous moments, meeting people on the road, to gather information is history.

And it’s strange how this technological phenomenon occurred so quickly.

As a whole, humanity is one step closer to being LOST.

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Up Close and Impersonal

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Traveling through Georgia, in a rusted Toyota, I had the chance to stair out of the window for hours. I saw a lot of what people call nothing; fields and trees, old barns and dangerous looking machinery. The Willacoochee River makes me think of cotton-mouth moccassins and the silence of canoes.

But when I saw this car, I saw a ferris wheel and dart games, the drive in movies, and a drag race. There was a chocolate covered ice-cream cone at the Tastee Freeze, drive-thru.

Daddy Let You Mind Roll On ~

*In the back x-tra cab, I had my Canon and a few lenses. But I walked down an embankment, smelling the stench, of a rotting carcass, with my iPhone 4 in hand.

*Instagram might take days.

*Why be in a hurry, to go nowhere.