the never ending search

IMG_0198In which direction am I going?

This has been a relatively constant theme in my life, both value and direction. And how does one affect the other.

The fish above are a red bass and a trout. Which is more valuable? Would they have had more value, if I had cleaned them off and held them up properly for their photo. Could I have made them more respectable fish?

There is no breath in the fish. There is no life. Did their fish souls fly to heaven? Are they in the big ocean in the sky?

Is it over populated there? Do they tell you how to swim? Are some spots better than others?

Were these fish unable to stand their ground?

Were their deaths due to high tech spider wire?

Value the fluid questions. Static sucks.


Not of this World

Hacking the Universe

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERADespite wealth, fame, and accomplishments, all human beings are subject to impermanence. People, places, and material things will always come and go; we can’t stop it. There are times we will be stripped of everything we have tried to hold onto. Once we accept those seemingly unacceptable circumstances, we will be led to surrender; and on the other side of surrender is a joy and peace that is not of this world. (From The Mindful Addict)

It’s a new day, of a new year. And today my resolution is God-conciousness. I have zig-zagged for thirty years. I get side tracked. I become involved in worldly things. It never works. Continue reading “Not of this World”

Live Your Dream

Create your reality ~

This surfer is Rubiana Brownell. I have had these images on my desk top for a few weeks. They are not the showiest pics, but they do demonstrate her surfing skills, and are indicative of her life skills. Those that a person would want to have, if they want to live their dream. Continue reading “Live Your Dream”

The Family Finances

And yet there is a belief that one must “protect the family finances.”


Internal thoughts have a way of surfacing, lingering, and then diving to the nadar of my existence, only to break through my encephalon, carrying crayons. I must have a window to spend time staring out of. It creates a division of mental gymnastics, pulling thread through my thoughts and gluing glitter across the nature on the other side of the pain.  Continue reading “The Family Finances”

The Center

The Centercenter |ˈsentər| (Brit. centre

1 [ no obj. ] (center around/on or center something around/on) have or cause to have something as (a major concern or theme): the case centers around the couple’s adopted children | the plot centers on two young men | [ with obj. ] : he is centering his discussion on an analysis of patterns of mortality.
• (be centered in) (of an activity) occur mainly in or around (a specified place): the mercantile association was centered in northern Germany.
2 [ with obj. ] place in the middle: to center the needle, turn the knob.
• Football pass the ball back from the ground to another player to begin a down; snap.

I just finished watching the documentary of Joan Didion’s life ~ The Center Will Not Hold. Continue reading “The Center”

When He Was 25

Being young in years is medicine to those that are young in years.


We had gone back to the Island, after a year of travel. First we had gone to Houston. A word of warning, don’t bother to bring marijuana with you, to Texas. It’s cheap and plentiful. Second, take some with you to California. It was hard to come by and outrageously expensive. But we know that things have changed and I would have no idea concerning cost or availability of any drug. But back then, it was a different story.

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